Dear Cyndaquil,
To quote Forest Gump, "Life is like a box of chocolates, You'll never know what you'll get inside." And that's true, isn't it? Life always throws you a curve ball when you least expects it.
My advice is that, don't be concern with which that does not love/care about you. For which that don't love you, dosen't deserve you. Honestly speaking, don't restrict yourself to the the past. Look up to the future. It's not just that it's better, but it's a lot more exciting. Like I said earlier, it's difficult, its hard. But that is why you have to live on. You have to stand up on your own two feet again. And when you do, know that you are a stronger person than before. Know that your experience is not in vain.
It's ok to think about your past relationship. That is normal. You think, you get heartaches, you feel pain. That is normal. It just shows how much you've devoted yourself to the relationship. Just don't let your thoughts control you. Period.
Hmm. Try doing something which you have never done before in your entire life. Rob a bank. Punch someone. Kiss a stranger. LOL. Or whatever. It could help you to stop thinking about the past. Ok maybe not entirely. I mean, for sure, the past will always creep in no matter how much you try, but you can though, limit that.
Live strong; I'll be rooting for you to survive the ordeal you are going through.
If you got anything you disagree, or you have anything you want to talk to me about, my ears are always open, 24/7, comment them on Twitter, and if I could help you there, I'll help you there. If not, I'll use this space and lend you a hand. I'll pull you away from the endless abyss which you are going through. Trust me.
Sincerely,
Art