Am I feeling the stress? I don't know.
Honestly, I don't think so.
'Coz if I am, I won't be taking life so easily now.
Is that a good thing?
Hmmm. not entirely. No. Actually, its not a good thing at all.
Assignments are starting to pile up and here I am, slacking and sleeping as though the submissions are gonna be in 10 years time. Mind you, I still go to school and did the workshops. If anything I could probably Aced the workshop module. Illustrator? Photoshop? Pffft. Too easy. Photography? I could do that. MIS? My idea is pretty good. Modeling? I'm just glad that that's over!! Like seriously.

I know my flaws. I procrastinate. And I procrastinate. And I still procrastinate.
Problem here is that I just don't have the motivation!
Drawing sucks. I absorb a lot. But just why the hell am I not improving?! That's so depressing that I'm just starting to push it aside. Then there's 2D. Oh I love it. Honestly, I love it.

BUT~
There's always gonna be a 'But' here.
Anyways, 2D. Gosh. It's painting. Sigh. My ideas for 2D are top notch. I'm impressed with my ideas like seriously. No kidding. But the execution wise... I'm not too sure about that. Bah! Whatever.
I seriously need a kick on my backside. My butt. My ass.

Foundation studies sucks.
And 3D as well. Oh man. 3D oh 3D. Wirehand. You hurt me, boy.
Ahhh. I could go on and on and on about these.

Fact is, I just lack the necessary motivation.
I believe though if I could get into level 1, I could ace all the subjects.
As long as it's digital arts, I know I could do well.
As long as it's digital. Jyeah.

Whatever. I'm not aiming high for foundation. I wouldn't mind a D.
As long as I clear the level, I'm pretty fine with whatever grades I get.
Few more weeks to submission.
Am I able to do it?
Stay tune to find out.

This blog needs a complete revamp.
=D

Someone's loss is another one's gain. True?

Heartbreaks, they certainly do come. The important thing is, not to get overly depressed cause of it. Because, if you do, then, you won't be able to see the more precious things in life. For every one that despise you, there is always some one to lend you support. We just have to open up our hearts, and our eyes of course. Because, if we missed it, then, it could be that the chance is forever gone.

But, amazingly, even though we know this, we reject the help of others. Why?
Ego?
Pride?

Humans are such pitiful creatures. Lonely, always craving the need for someone else but yet we are afraid of how others look at us(?).

Ashamed of ourselves maybe?
Hmmm.

Some points to ponder.

Dear Cyndaquil,

To quote Forest Gump, "Life is like a box of chocolates, You'll never know what you'll get inside." And that's true, isn't it? Life always throws you a curve ball when you least expects it.

My advice is that, don't be concern with which that does not love/care about you. For which that don't love you, dosen't deserve you. Honestly speaking, don't restrict yourself to the the past. Look up to the future. It's not just that it's better, but it's a lot more exciting. Like I said earlier, it's difficult, its hard. But that is why you have to live on. You have to stand up on your own two feet again. And when you do, know that you are a stronger person than before. Know that your experience is not in vain.

It's ok to think about your past relationship. That is normal. You think, you get heartaches, you feel pain. That is normal. It just shows how much you've devoted yourself to the relationship. Just don't let your thoughts control you. Period.

Hmm. Try doing something which you have never done before in your entire life. Rob a bank. Punch someone. Kiss a stranger. LOL. Or whatever. It could help you to stop thinking about the past. Ok maybe not entirely. I mean, for sure, the past will always creep in no matter how much you try, but you can though, limit that.

Live strong; I'll be rooting for you to survive the ordeal you are going through.

If you got anything you disagree, or you have anything you want to talk to me about, my ears are always open, 24/7, comment them on Twitter, and if I could help you there, I'll help you there. If not, I'll use this space and lend you a hand. I'll pull you away from the endless abyss which you are going through. Trust me.

Sincerely,
Art